firstly for not blogging ytd..cos i heard the news of my great grandmum passed away..i am too sad to do anyhing but to rest on bed n cry...2ndly she passed away on sat n no 1 in my family actully told mii till ytd nite..when she passed away i was at fren house..staying..todae my sadness finally reflected on my face..none of my frens could understand how i feel..if i could choose..i would rather not go fren house..not eat sushi..not watch kung fu panda..but saying wad now is pointless..everything is in the past..i cannot change anything nor go back in time..i told MW n Brenda n Kl..their words made no different to how i feel..if any of my frens can see this..from loyang..i am no longer the old jonathan..i wont take anymore jokes..lyk nicks..n stuff..once in awhile can..i have grown up..more mature..no more kidy jon..as for todae..the good news i finally finish work..n reac hed home..bathed..BUT bad news is..when every1 blamed mii when KL did not do her job..wad can i do..i try to explain..none of them listen..i feel tat i am too easy to be builled..i will be strong..rite after i post this..i gave up of frenship..now i juz wish i can faster finish my job..get my pay..n juz keep my distance from them..i am too afraid to be hurt anymore..maybe wad i said since i turned emo is true..i'm fated to have no true frens..frenship hurt mii to badly..once after once..the thing abt my great grandmum..no 1 will understand how i wish..neither any of them will ever untderstand hows the feeling of been tease..been kind n guai..has no repayment..i decided not to be so kind anymore..my life is over..
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